the ALT- way

sometime, i feel like i just keep going straight...
then i can get what i want

but

sometime, i am wonder..
since i know keep on going straight is harder than choose alternate way..
why i can't just change my step to continue with the alt way??

keep on repeating the same mistake everytime...
get hurt everytime...
but i still can't getting smarter...
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it is shows that how stupid am I...??
or
how stubborn am I??

so,
if i change to an alt way
i can get what i want... then WHY NOT??!!
this is what i tell myself

haha...
but i still cant make it...
T.T